She's 50

My sister is 50 today, I’m one of 10 she’s number 7 and I’m number 8 so that means I’m the next to turn 50. How did I get here?

I have 2 ½ years yet but that will go like the wind. I vowed to myself that I would arrive at 50 as a non smoker, fit and slim.

I’ve allowed enough time.

I’m stopped smoking about 4 months ago. Am I out of the cancer woods?

I’m walking each day and have progressed into a run and I have stopped eating obvious sugar. I did backslide but craved vegetables straight after. How sweet is that?

How is it that your teenage children demand that you are non sexual and that you don’t speak of anything connected with sex at all when your peaking in that area? How did I get here?

How is it that loosing weight is more of a bitch then you’ve ever known in your life? Is it not cruel?

How is it that after having children (and never wanting to start at zero again), going back to uni and starting a career late in life means that I’m mixing with young women who are all leaving to have their babies? Does that ticking sound never stop?

How is it that I’ve ceased worrying about wrinkles and look in horror at Botox, facelifts, plastic surgery and the fear of aging? Is it not ugly?

Two and half years to go…that’s all…I’m not worried yet…..*wonky grin*